I have felt like I have been on an emotional rollercoaster lately with the ups and downs of parenting, marriage, school, my future career and relationships . One minute I feel like I have all the answers and am 100% confident in myself. Then the next minute I feel like I come back down to earth and remind myself I’m nothing special. I tell myself I won’t succeed, I’m just setting myself up for failures, that all good things have to come to an end, once I graduate I won’t be successful (even though I have big plans and feel like I have a good plan in place). I felt excited for my future this am and now I am questioning my existence and purpose in life.
I started off feeling unstoppable and now I feel duped and defeated, almost like someone popped my balloon because it was time.
Depression is real. Even for someone trying to do all the hard work to keep it under control. Sometimes the illness is stronger than my efforts. But even though I feel defeated and invalid I won’t give up! I know God gave me a purpose and a beautiful life.
I ask for prayers and Grace.
I am a fighter and will work through these thoughts on my life. It’s just hard sometimes.
Mommy’s Mental Hangover 
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