Reality of My Anxiety and Depression

The frustration I feel from this is overwhelming. I can’t stand not being 100% (or close to). This illness takes a lot out of me and I feel like I work very hard at keeping it under control but obviously it has a mind of its own sometimes. It’s not fair to my family or friends when I am struggling.. and it feels lately I’ve been struggling a lot! Thank you to everyone who has reached out and lended a shoulder, it’s greatly appreciated. I won’t give up even though I feel like it would be better for everyone not to deal with my messy self. I know God has a purpose for me and I wouldn’t do that to my family. This shiz is just very real for me.